Thursday, February 16, 2006

Five Things + Five Questions for You

1. During the dreaded two week wait, does anyone else, you know, check the toilet paper religiously after using the bathroom? Or is it just me? Partner saw me doing this yesterday and she said, "Do you do that every time?" I just nodded and flushed. I can't be the only one. Tell me I'm not the only one.

2. I feel nothing yet. No nausea. Nada. Some cramping akin to last time, but not in the same place. More down my legs. I am trying to pretend it's okay. During the tww, did you ever want to throw up quite so badly?

3. I had vowed no more home pregnancy tests this time since last time it was too awful. But now, tonight, I kinda want to do one. Partner is gone at to a late night meet and greet type of event. I'm free, as Mr. Humphries used to say, and the hpt's are calling their siren song from the bathroom tucked behind the rolls and rolls of Costco toilet paper. Opinions?

4. I really want this test to come back positive. I've been smelling baby heads in my dreams. No question here really. Just a small admission of hope.

5. While at Trader Joe's I found dealcoholized wine. Is this stuff any good?

14 Comments:

Blogger Robyn said...

well...i think i told you this before...but i always tested early. insane, i know. but...the two times i got pg...i tested positive on 10dpo. and all of those other months (i think there were 11 or so)...negative on 10dpo, 11dpo, 12dpo...etc...and then i'd bleed. for me...it was MY way to have time to grieve before the obvious (the blood) started. and..i'd also have a few days where i could say..."well..maybe, you never know."

lastly...you MUST get really busy with other thoughts/stuff/hobbies(?) right now. cuz there is no other way to get through this awful time.

fingers and toes crossed here in Texas for you.

p.s. we are going home to N.O. for the weekend prior to Mardi Gras. i'm soooo excited!

5:52 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

1. Every single time. I still do. At 3 am.

2. I had cramping in the 2ww during every single one of my medicated cycles, pregnant or not. And as for throwing up, I'm over 13 weeks and still haven't thrown up :) I didn't even get nauseous until a week or two after my extraordinarily late beta.

3. I love to pee on things. I'd have started right away to know when the trigger shot was out of your system.

4. I'm hoping with you.

5. If it is, please let me know.

6:23 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Every single time - before I found out and then every single time until about week 32 of my pregnancy. EVERY SINGLE TIME!

7:11 PM  
Blogger Sara said...

1. I'm a chronic "looker". Especially in the TWW.

2. I've had cramping during previous cycles & today after the insemination. I've only had nausea occasionally.

3. I have not used a home pregnancy test for the past few months. Those negative results gave me false hope that I might be "one of those people who is pregnant but never turns a home pregnancy test positive". I prefer the definitive blood test I get at the clinic.

4. I love the smell of baby heads! My Katie said she had a dream last night about me being pregnant though.

5. Never heard of it!

9:51 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

1. During every one of my months of trying to conceive (you know, that time I got pregnant on purpose)(and I only joke about that here and now because I feel like we know each other well enough for me to treat you the way I would any other friend in the same situation--exactly the same as I would if you weren't, unless and until you tell me not to, and really all you have to do is say the word). Also during every pregnancy. The whole time. You think you're bad now? Wait'll you're in your first trimester and see something you think MIGHT be blood (but is really, hypothetically, perhaps a very small red fiber from underpants) and not only do you start invading yourself like an Orthodox Jewish woman trying to figure out whether she's "unclean" for her husband, but you also begin to consider getting some tools ready beforehand(Q-tip, flashlight for better viewing of findings, new pair of pristine white underpants to better gauge hue of any subsequent evidence). Not that I've ever done that. Who the hell would do that? Sick.
2. The symptoms of PMS and very early pregnancy can be identical. You are torturing yourself needlessly and unnecessarily expending emotional energy best saved for
3. Don't even pretend like you're not going to start peeing on everything you can get your hands on the moment you are alone. In fact, (cocks ear toward Michigan) yes, I think you're peeing on something right now. Wash your hands and then post the results for those of use playing along at home.
4. Oh, Katie.
5. Please, are things like that EVER any good? Do you know anyone who honestly (all health concerns, politics, etc. aside) PREFERS fat-free ice cream, or virgin drinks, or brown rice?

12:05 AM  
Blogger Portlairge said...

Chronic TP checker right here. I haven't had the dealcoholized wine but I'd say it's crap. As for peeing on a stick. I started 6dp3dt and spent over $100 on pee sticks and my husband found the receipt. If you do, please let us know.

10:50 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I was a very proud toilet paper checker. :) I call it SElF ASSURANCE. Hey I'm not afraid to admit that I do things just to make it through the day! As for the home pregnancy test... uggg I don't know, but if it helps you get through the day I say go for it.

11:03 AM  
Blogger Anna said...

1) I'm 32w4d and I'm still checking the TP, everytime. The thought of not checking has never even occured to me.
2) On my previous cycle, I had every symptom in the book, and would have bet my house I was pg, but that was a BFN. On this cycle that worked, I didn't have one symptom. Never nauseated, never threw up. And so far, so good, so that can't be a bad thing.
3) I am against the pee sticks, because all they do is screw with your head. Everyone feels differently about this, though, so do what you feel comfortable with. I certainly don't have disdain for those who use them, it's just my personal preference not to.
4) Yeah, you know what? I really want this to work for you too! Everything is crossed. I so want you to be knocked up. Really - you should be pregnant. Everything is crossed for you.
5) Sadly, I am nowhere near a trader joe's, so I can't tell you about the wine, but I do love their sunflower seed butter (my mom sent me some).

Now! I still need to know: how many embryos did they transfer? How many, if any, were frozen? These are important details, girl, and to someone as cught up in the nitty gritty as myself, it can be come all consuming. I'm working on that...

Have a great weekend and good luck! I'm rooting for you and Partner! When do you go for your first beta?

1:03 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

1) Katie, Katie, Katie... shakes head... toilet paper checking??? Darling, that's for newbies. The hardcore types gently swab their cervix with a sterile q-tip. It takes at least an hour for those fluids to travel south to your underwear or a wad of toilet paper. Why WAIT those extra precious minutes... when an internal swipe will give an instant repreive!

What... why are you looking at me like that...

2) Urge to throw up... but you say you aren't nauseaus...so... do you mean throw-up in anticipation??? Nerves??If so... constantly... 24/7.

3)I bought pee-sticks in bulk... on-line... I had 50 lined up and ready to test starting on 5dpt. I had planned to pee on TWO at a time... you know... as a scientific control device... so... I'm probably not the best person to be rendering this advice.

4)Hope? That Bitch... just keep her under lock and key until you are good and ready to entertain her destructive company!

5)PLEEEEASE let it taste good... puh-leeeease!!!!

3:25 PM  
Blogger Liz said...

1. Nope, haven't checked too much. After waking up in a panic during week 5 about a myriad of things that could go wrong with this pregnancy, for the first time in my life, I just decided I wasn't going to worry.

And I haven't (too much). I've worried obsessively more about completely stupid stuff, but not how this kid will turn out. I still don't quite get how I've pulled that off.

2. The second cycle we tried (and failed) I was ridiculously nauseous.

The cycle it actually worked, I was absolutely convinced I was getting my period. Big Ole' Cramps and everything.

3. After testing early on our first failed cycle, DP and I made a pact: no testing until my period was late. I held to that for the most part but did do one on 9DPO the month we were pg -- it was negative. After that one, I waited until 15DPO and got the world's faintest positive.

4. The cycle it worked, I had completely distanced myself from it. But we were at DisneyWorld and I found myself looking longingly at every pregnant woman or family with small kids and getting all annoyed. Then sad.

5. Can't help ya there.

I'm so crossing my fingers for you!

6:29 PM  
Blogger chris said...

Too early on everything.

And because I don't really like wine anyway (I know, it makes me a peasant), I'm thinking that alcohol free stuff is pretty nasty.

Oh yeah, too early.

8:08 AM  
Blogger Eryn said...

#1. Every time! I am glad it isn't just me!

#3. I make the same vow each time. But after my last cycle I decided it was easier to test every day after 8 or 9 dpo, than not. So I stocked up on dollar store hpts. I think it helps!

#5. I've had it and it SUCKS! You're better off buying grape juice!

9:58 AM  
Blogger LilySea said...

news???

12:09 PM  
Blogger frog said...

You'll have news by the time the Lesbian Fellowship Dinner happens, right? And you'll be there, right? And we'll drink to it, one way or another.

2:22 PM  

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